Truth be told, I do not feel like am too good for anyone, nor do I feel like anyone isn't good enough for me, I simply believe in connection and compatibility, I believe in attraction and passion, I believe in love and forgiveness, I believe in acceptance and trust, and most of all I believe that relationships shouldn't be a chore, it shouldn't seem like its your responsibility to want to be in one for the sake of marriage, or cos at this stage you are single and you just have to be with some one.
What happened to the freedom of singleness, the freedom to refused to be sucked into the crazy world of you have to get hitched in a certain time. Does it not count to be really happy, why is compromise the easiest feeling to contend with when you could feel so much more, you could feel so elevated in your own way when you find that which you have been searching for.
Am here asking myself, does it have to be an either now or never decision? Do I ve to waltz in formation like the society, what's wrong with finding someone who makes my heart pound just at the thoughts of him, who when I see I feel sweat swell from my palms, whose kiss weakens my knee, whose hug makes all my pains disappear.
Am not searching for a fairy tale, no, I know it happens, I know even as rosy as it sounds there would be days when I would want to shot him, probably, there would be moments when I would want to poison him but in all that anger and pain, I would forgive him because I love him and I would love him more because I would know that life without him is not life at all!
So here I am pondering, should I waltz with the crowd and chose my farmer in a tweed jacket or tango with my here but not now chatter, just maybe I should disco with the mighty pragmatic or perhaps I should samba with my hopeful activist or have faith and wait to Salsa with the pauper who thinks himself a knight!
They say a fool at fifty started as a fool at twenty, oh dear love find me, do not let me be a single fool at fifty.
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